Very aware that I signed up to a "Sugarfree September" I woke up yesterday absolutely starving and feeling incredibly grumpy and deprived.
I needed to eat!!!
Now normally I never have my breakfast much before 10am, but at 7.30 I needed food and damn it I was going to have what I bloomin well liked (swear words changed to protect the innocent ears amongst us :-) )
I put spread and marmite onto 2 cream crackers and munched with a "Hah that'll teach you to starve me", then I went back for another 2, then I had some Thai Sweet Chilli Crisps.....Yes I know will power needed to be exerted, but I was just so....anti "stopping me eat" stuff.... ooh how the mind works.
I made lunch to take out with me, cooked some chicken strips in spices to make my own goujons and added them to salad, with a portion of berries for after. (See! Healthy lunch)
I went to teach my exercise class.
I headed home to change - oops another packet of crisps opened, bugger...ah well I really don't care.
Off to work, eat most of lunch, go to visit my mum and dad, access Chocolate caramel wafer and cheddars. Blimey this is going well!! :-( Then my 2nd class of the day, and afterwards had food cooked for me which happened to be ham, egg and potato wedges.
Funnily while I was eating it I really wasn't enjoying it.
But damn I felt much better later in the evening.
Then today I woke, feeling much brighter and discovered it was "that time of the month" again.....ahhhhhhh explains a lot.
I opened up my brand new KSFL detox programme meal book, and thought I'd find a few recipes I could buy for and make that I would actually enjoy.
I headed to meet a friend for a cuppa and a chat, got through 2 cups of tea (not having had breakfast beforehand)
Went shopping to stock up on the food for my evening meal, then visited another friend for more tea. It is now 6pm in the evening and I have not eaten anything all day, and am only now starting to feel a little peckish.
A natural intermittent fast maybe?
An unhealthy eating habit, certainly, but that is one of my issues. Some days I just want to eat, and some days I just really don't fancy food.
I realise this is where I need training.....My brain needs to be re-trained.
Initially the thought of just protein and veg for 30days sent me into a cold sweat of resistance, and resistance is futile as far as I am concerned, we can crack this reluctance and get the veg back into my diet.
Let the retraining begin.
I am starting with hiding my veg in food, so I get more veg, then I can work on adding Veg as a separate part of a meal, and then I can start working on my proper healthy eating for life.
"We are what we repeatedly do" therefore I need to repeatedly do healthy stuff.
It's a slow process, and this blog will be interesting and challenging, as part of me thinks, if I give up no-one will know or care, except me of course, and maybe it is me that should care the most.
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