Thinking is great, it allows you to work through processes in your mind, it allows you to come up with ideas, it allows you to work things through and rationalise things that happen during the day, but it can be stubborn and nasty and block things when it wants to get its own way. In short the mind is a spoilt child stamping its feet to get what it wants and needs to be controlled.
I could compare it to having children and then persistently keeping on about things until you give in.
To constantly whining until you want to either scream or feed it to shut it up.
Yes I am talking about the perennial food issues that bug me again and again and why I can't control my mind for long enough so that I can beat the demons into submission.
I have aready been through the "I obviously dont like myself much" routine, that doesn't help, so shaming me into it doesn't work.
Nor it seems does reasoning.
Plenty of friends say the same words to me that I say to others and I just want to punch them in the face and tell them to shut the eff up.
I ALREADY KNOW IT
is what I want to scream
then a little quiet voice whispers "Then why don't you do it?"
Cue irritation and screaming fit, as i really don't know why I can't just do what I know is what I need to be doing. (Oh lord I hope that makes sense to you as it does to me)
The reality is, I, like most other people, KNOW what the issues are.
WE KNOW what we need to do to fix it, whatever IT is, and yet we DONT do what we know would be good.
We keep going with the path of spoilt child silencing and least resistance, and then beat ourselves up yet again.
There must be some payback for sticking in the same position and whining about the same things time and time again. If the rewards for staying stuck are greater than the rewards for change (or is it fear of change leading to different rewards)
Anyway I need to stop thinking, it hurts
Off to find some mind control training, catch you later.
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